tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-68201333749583235732024-03-08T07:32:36.444-04:00A Writer's TherapyRegular updates on life and all that is writing-related through the eyes of a psychological drama writer.N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.comBlogger25125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-57054746695317605872012-04-14T17:05:00.001-03:002012-04-14T17:06:34.947-03:00That one morning when I got up at the buttcrack of dawn to study chemistryIt’s a scenario familiar to most, if not all, university and college students: that one exam that you’re concerned isn’t going to go so well. There’s at least one every semester, and you find yourself studying for it a little more than the others, even despite the fact that you know, deep in the pit of your stomach, with every fiber of your soul, that you need to study for EVERYTHING in university unless you want it to eat you alive. Clearly, as the good university or college student you are, you limit your partying or whatever else you like to do during exams week, and you study for the God forsaken things – but sometimes you study too much for the exams you think you’re going to get shitty grades in, end up passing those with flying colors, and bomb the easy insert-best-subject-here exam you thought you were guaranteed an A+ in.<br /><br />Well... this is not at all what happened to me in my second semester of second year (this time last year). In fact, the exact opposite happened. What on Earth does this have to do with writing, you ask? You’ll see, in due time.<br /><br />This time last year I had six classes and a lab on my plate, including two very difficult courses: methods and stats in psychology II (which is objectively a difficult course because it contains two exams, ten pieces of homework and a 30-50 page term project including statistical analyses) and solutions chemistry (which is difficult to me because my feelings toward general chemistry can be compared perpetually to the average person’s reaction to a 100-year-old mop dipped in a puddle of mud, with flies buzzing around it, and containing approximately seven dead mice). As you may have guessed, at the end of the semester, the chemistry exam was the one I was most worried about. But did I study adequately for this exam considering I was already failing the course at that point? Of course not. Instead, I spent all my time concentrating on my stats exam and my term project. I ended up making an A in that course, a grade of which I was very proud considering I am not naturally good with stats or anything math-related. But that’s nowhere near the point.<br /><br />All this to say that a couple days after my stats exam sat the chemistry exam, looming nefariously in the near distance. I therefore began studying for my chemistry final the day before. This was clearly not a smart decision, so that night, I decided I would stay up for as long as possible to study, go to bed, wake up at five o’clock and resume (my exam was at 8:30 in the morning). <br /><br />So that’s exactly what I did. And guess what? It wasn’t enough. I failed that course. And looking back... it really freaking doesn’t surprise me. At all.<br /><br />That stats course I took last year taught me a lot of things about university, and so did the chemistry course, despite the fact that I failed one and passed the other with a 4.0. The primary lesson they taught me was that you don’t have to be good at something going into it to come out with an A+. I’ve learned that natural talent and intelligence have very, very little to do with your grades in university. Hard work, perseverance, and motivation are everything. As someone who’s always been intelligent and who never had to study for anything to get As in high school, this was a lesson I guess I just had to learn the hard way. I’m not good at stats, and I got excellent grades in chemistry in high school... but look what happened here. I was highly motivated for one and didn’t give a shit about the other – and what do you know? That was all it took to make the tables turn.<br /><br />They taught me another difficult lesson, too – this one perhaps even more difficult. If I’m going to succeed in university – if I’m going to get the grades I want, and need to get into medical school – I need to stop prioritizing my writing over everything.<br /><br />It’s tough, but I’m finishing up my third year now and I really do need to start thinking about my future first. Not working on my story for a few days makes me cranky, so I still try to sneak it in for a moment or two during a not-so-busy day... but if I don’t get to work on it for a while, you know what? It’s not going to kill me. At this point I need discipline and perspective, and I need to realize that my writing isn’t going away – it’ll still be there at the end of the semester and I can concentrate on it all I want then. <br /><br />This semester, I finally was able to detach myself enough from my own work to concentrate primarily on my education. The results are fantastic. I’m looking at a 3.8-3.9 session GPA if everything goes according to plan, and that chemistry course? I’m making a B right now, hopefully bringing it up to a B+ or an A- with the final. I’ve already started studying and my exam is only in two weeks. And the best part is, so far it’s looking like that morning where I woke up at the buttcrack of dawn to study chemistry isn’t going to have to happen this year. Of course, it doesn’t mean I’m any less of a serious writer... all it means is that I’m learning to prioritize. And what I’ve realized is that having your priorities in order is <em>far</em> less stressful.<br /><br />Lesson learned.N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-16555950663576448582012-02-29T12:19:00.004-04:002012-02-29T12:20:48.174-04:00Happy Leap Day!More of a short-ish update on my progress with the story than anything – currently, I’m undertaking the reworking prep stage, which consists of very extensive planning before I start the reworking (bringing the story from a draft to a manuscript). The prep stage has three goals:<br /><br />- Working out little details that are necessary to the story (for example, making sure all dates are correct).<br /><br />- Research and fact-checking (I already did quite a bit of research in the preliminary planning stage, but that was just enough to write the story convincingly. The drafts were about the storyline itself while the reworking is more about making it publishable).<br /><br />- Scene work (figuring out where the story is going to start, where it’s going to end, and which scenes stay and go. Currently, I’m making the second draft scenebook, which records all scenes in the story in order – they will most likely not remain in that order).<br /><br />Since I am trying to get the series back down into one book for publication (for several reasons), these stages consider the entire story as a whole and completely stop differentiating the two volumes.<br /><br />Right now, I have “Life in Black and White” as the final manuscript’s actual title, with “Resolution” and “It’s All Inside My Head” (I love this title too much to get rid of it) as the part titles. I’m not going to lie, getting back into the one-book mindset after it being a two-part series for so long is kind of weird and difficult, but I’m starting to get used to it. I know this is what’s best for the story going into publication (it’s EXTREMELY difficult to get an agent to accept a series from a new author, among other reasons I’m going with one book in the end), and it’s a step forward – even though it feels like a step backward sometimes.<br /><br />In closing, three small tips for writers who are envisioning the editing process (or starting it) for the first time:<br /><br />1. Everything they’ve told you about editing is true. It’s not always longer than the writing process (it wasn’t for me), but it is definitely ten times harder. It’s no longer the fun and games you enjoyed while writing the first draft. Editing with the intent of getting published is serious business, and it’s truly a process (at times rewarding, at times very frustrating) – so if you’re not serious about the story you want to edit, my advice would be to either start writing something you’re more serious about or just be content with the first draft.<br /><br />2. Things are going to change, and that’s okay. Look at your story as objectively as possible when editing (get input from people you trust or a critique team if necessary). No matter how much you love a scene, if it’s doing absolutely nothing for the story it probably shouldn’t be in there. <br /><br />3. Most people have to revise their story three, four or even five times before it’s ready. It’s probably still not going to be perfect in your eyes the first time you edit it – and listen to your gut. If you’re not satisfied with it, it’s not ready to go.N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-16237680086029787712012-02-27T13:32:00.003-04:002012-02-27T14:34:22.864-04:00Writing pet peevesListening to: Vitamin String Quartet renditions of Coldplay songs <br />Should be doing: Tomorrow's anatomy lab report/physics homework<br /><br />Instead I'm finding myself thinking about the two things I think about most: writing, and things that piss me off about people. Here are my top ten pet peeves related to writing and being a writer (comment and tell me if you relate!):<br /><br />10. <strong>"When are you getting it published??"</strong> - Ah, shit, hang on! Just let me finish revamping my entire story, do a big old bunch of research, and find a really good agent! BRB IN FIVE MINUTES.<br /><br />Like, seriously, while I really appreciate the support (<3), people who don't write cannot even begin to understand how complex and LONG and DIFFICULT this process is. But trust me, when I get accepted for publication, the whole world will be like the first to know.<br /><br />9. <a href="http://www.salon.com/2010/11/02/nanowrimo/">This article.</a><br /><br />8. The awkward and very common <strong>assumption that being a fiction writer automatically makes you an English major</strong>. You don't even get how many times I've had this legit conversation with people I run into from high school (I was "the writer" in high school):<br /><br />Them: Hey how's it going?<br />Me: Good, how are you? What are you up to these days?<br />Them: Oh, you know, *blablablatheirlifeblabla* ... what about you? How's school going? You're in English, right?<br />Me: Uh... no. Actually I'm in pre-med and psych.<br />Them: Oh! I just figured you were in English since you write so much!<br /><br />That awkward moment.<br /><br />7. People (most notably my mom and my grandparents) not understanding, no matter how many times I tell them, that there are FOUR YEARS of my blood, sweat and tears on my netbook and USB, and therefore, I'd jump headfirst in a fire before I "left my bag in the car". -_- The bag comes with me, deal with it.<br /><br />6. Being "the writer" doesn't mean I can just change:<br />- My character's gender ("He's so emotional, wouldn't it be easier if he was a girl?" - Reaaaaaaaally? Dude he's got a MENTAL DISORDER THAT CAUSES MOOD SWINGS. That doesn't make him a girl.)<br />- My ending<br />- My subplots<br />- My characters' more-than-occasional use of profane language (seriously, we've got a psychopath, a rebellious and emotionally disturbed teenage dude, a girl who gets suspended from school like every day and a girl who didn't finish high school because she was in the hospital every two weeks for suicide attempts, IN THE SAME GROUP OF FRIENDS. IT WOULD BE HIGHLY OUT OF CHARACTER FOR THESE PEOPLE NOT TO DROP F-BOMBS ONCE IN A WHILE)<br />- My characters' names (most of them start with J, and some people find that "confusing" I guess)<br />- My setting ("oh, why don't you set it in NEW BRUNSWICK INSTEAD?" - Why don't you go live in Taiwan?)<br />- Etc.<br /><br />No, my characters aren't "making me do things". I COULD change all these things. I have the technology. But if I changed them, the story wouldn't make any freaking sense! And asking a writer to change their characters' names is just not cool. That's like me asking you to just change the name of your four-year-old kid or your pet. <br /><br />5. The fact that awesome ideas or the sudden fire of inspiration never come to me when I’m trying to WRITE. They come at one of three times: At work, when I’m hanging out with friends, or at three in the morning.<br /><br />4. The three following types of writers:<br /><br />- “I don’t need to revise my work.” Oh, honey... I’m sorry you feel that way.<br />- Writers who brag constantly about how good their story is and how everyone likes it. I like talking about my books as much as the next writer, and I do think it’s a pretty decent story, but no matter how true it might be, bragging constantly about your story and characters makes you look like a big d-bag. There’s also the fact that a lot of these people get super personally offended if you don’t like their characters or say anything negative about them. I’d be pretty screwed if I was one of those people, let me tell you that.<br />- People who call themselves writers, and who try to fit all the stereotypes, but who DON’T ACTUALLY WRITE ANYTHING OF SUBSTANCE. Writing is a VERB before it’s an identity people! These folks give writers who actually work and make the necessary sacrifices for their writing a bad name, and it’s not cool. <br /><br />3. Anyone who is not the author having any kind of sense of entitlement over a story – or especially a character. Best example I can think of is fans getting all personally offended when J.K. Rowling outed Dumbledore. This pretty much comes with the territory of being published and having a fanbase for your work, yes. Is it going to stop me from getting my stuff published? Obviously not. Does it piss me off any less? NOOOO. Related to this, I also HAAAAAAAAAATE with a capital H the “when you put a novel out into the world, it becomes the reader’s” mindset. No, it doesn’t. Yes, the reader can choose how to interpret the story and the characters. Doesn’t mean they are any less the author’s intellectual property. And if the author wants to make a change or announce something about a character like J.K. did, it remains totally in his or her right to do so! Good freaking lord. <br /><br />2. “Every writer is also an avid reader.” – I am not an avid reader, and never have been, which is why this gets on my nerves. Most writers also love reading, but it’s silly to say that you “have” to love one thing in order to love another. Writing and reading are two different processes, fundamentally, and let’s all just remember that people write for different reasons. Not everyone writes because they love reading novels and want to write their own drawing from inspiration they got while reading. Personally, I write because I love the craft of it, and I have stories and characters floating around in my head that need to come out. Writing for me is a way to immortalize the stories that crowd my overactive imagination. Nothing to do with reading whatsoever.<br /><br />1. “Write what you know.” – Not so much the adage itself, but rather the VERY MANY (you’d be surprised) writers and especially non-writers who take it too damn literally. “Write what you know” means know what you write – as in, if it’s not something you’ve personally experienced, you need to do the necessary research to make sure you’ve got your facts right and to make sure your portrayals are accurate. It doesn’t mean that you ABSOLUTELY CAN’T write about something you’ve never experienced yourself, which is how so many people take it. The idea that some people think not having a mental illness myself makes me unqualified to write a story about mental illness is honestly an insult to my intelligence and to my imagination. It’s called research, guys, don’t worry about it. I know what I’m doing.N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-20765538274267790662011-07-11T21:47:00.002-03:002011-07-11T21:55:42.769-03:00Update!This is just another quick update between coming home from Starbucks and starting up my editing again. <br /><br />I finished the second draft edit of Part I on schedule on June 30, 2011. Now I'm working toward a deadline of August 8, 2011 (G's 23rd birthday!) for the second drafts of Parts II and III. <br /><br />This seems really unrealistic considering the time it took me to complete Part I, but it's going extremely well so far. Part III is very nearly complete as of now (14/17 chapters ready to go). Part II is a little less far along with 3/18 chapters, but I've already done my first readthrough and the great majority of my chapter plans. Therefore, I know exactly what I want to keep and get rid of, and which scenes go where.<br /><br />I have been editing pretty much nonstop for the last couple days. If I can keep this up without wanting to pull my hair out, it should be all good.<br /><br />In other words, a big THANK YOU to the members of my reading team that have begun reading Part I. You've already provided so much awesome feedback, and I'm really happy with this entire thing so far!N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-35584972112617986062011-06-29T15:50:00.002-03:002011-06-29T16:05:03.519-03:00Deadline tomorrow - very quick update!So, I don't have much time to make a long post right now, but considering my second draft deadline for Part I is tomorrow I thought I'd drop in for a quick update!<br /><br />I have one full chapter left to edit (chapter 2) and three scenes (within two other chapters) to complete before Part I is ready for printing!! This is one of the most exciting things ever. I mean, printing out an abridged version of Part II for a readthrough was exciting enough - but that was a first draft. I absolutely cannot wait to see a second draft (all pretty and formatted) in print. My printing is on Saturday and I am going to be a proud mama! <br /><br />Just to give you an idea of the magnitude of Part I's edit:<br /><br />- A full readthrough of the novel was done from February 13th to mid-March. My edit of Part I began in mid-March and will end tomorrow, so that's about two and a half or three months if you consider the breaks I took to retype Part III chapters and do a highlighter readthrough of Part II, times during which I did not work on Part I at all.<br /><br />- The first step of the edit was reading the whole draft and removing irrelevant scenes. Then I actually remade all the chapter plans, followed by scene plans, to fugure out exactly which scenes I wanted where. Just making the plans took me about a week and a half because of other life obligations I had at the time.<br /><br />- The first draft of Part I was 19 chapters and around 300 pages. The second draft is 10 chapters and approximately 90 pages. <br /><br />Tomorrow, I will finally be able to say, "That's a BIG job done." Haha! And then comes time to work on Part II, which is the biggest problem area in the story right now. But now that I have some experience with editing, I feel confident that I'll be able to get through it! N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-74474642928436928872011-06-23T15:58:00.003-03:002011-06-23T16:43:39.592-03:00Self-set deadlines and why they don't work for everyoneHey all! I know I haven't updated this in a million years, but I've really been thinking about starting it up again lately. Since I just got home and I'm going out for supper with my grandparents in less than an hour, I figured this would be the perfect opportunity to throw a post your way.<br /><br />For a while now, I've thought about kind of changing this blog so that, instead of it being just me talking about my own material, it can be more helpful to other writers that may be struggling with the same issues as I do. So, while I'm still going to be posting updates on my progress with my series (more often, I promise!), I'm also going to make themed posts (like this one) about issues that a lot of writers may deal with and my tips on how to properly deal with them.<br /><br />This post: Self-set deadlines.<br /><br />If you're like me, YOU PROCRASTINATE. While writing is probably the thing I can honestly say I procrastinate the least on, it's still important to me to get stuff finished within a period of time I consider reasonable. I set myself deadlines for the completion of different writing projects for three big reasons:<br /><br />- I want my stuff to get done, and if I have a date to have it finished by, I can kind of strive toward that. Having a deadline really motivates me to work on it.<br /><br />- If I ever become a published author, I will almost certainly have to deal with deadlines. Might as well get used to them now.<br /><br />- If there's a date that has a particular significance to the project in question, I will try to finish it on that date. This was the case for the first drafts of both novels in my series, completed on May 31, 2010 (Life in Black and White) and February 12, 2011 (It's All Inside My Head).<br /><br />So far, I've had no problem whatsoever abiding by my deadlines. And then I started macrorevision.<br /><br />For those of you who aren't extremely familiar with writing terminology, macrorevision is the first part of revision. It consists of re-reading the entire first draft of a book and pinpointing plotholes, inconsistencies in plot or character, and what you want to remain in the manuscript/what you need to take out. It's basically the process of changing your novel so that everything you want to be in there is in there, everything you don't need is taken out, and most importantly, everything is cohesive. This is an extremely long process - even longer, it seems, than I (and my June 30 second draft deadline) could foresee. <br /><br />It's June 23, and at this point, I'm almost 100% certain that I won't be making the June 30 deadline for my second draft of Life in Black and White, which is unfortunate, because I have a reading team assembled to start reading it on July 2. Luckily for everyone, I do believe Part I will be ready as planned on the 30th, so at least my readers will have SOMETHING to read while I do my best on Part II. <br /><br />It's discouraging, I won't lie. I usually know what's realistic and not realistic for me. I remember when I started working on It's All Inside My Head - about this time last year - and I was telling everyone, "I'm going to finish this in February." People were generally supportive, but I don't think anyone really believed I could write that book in eight months (especially considering it took me almost two years to write Life in Black and White). My mom in particular blatantly told me several times that she didn't think I was going to make it. But I did. <br /><br />So what happened this time? Would I have worked harder if June 30 meant something to me?<br /><br />I was at work the other day when the answer came to me, and it was so obvious.<br /><br />I'm used to writing novels, but I'm NOT used to editing them.<br /><br />It's true, this is my first time editing a long work of fiction. And let's be honest here for a second: the first draft of Life in Black and White (which I started writing when I was 17, mind) is a REAL piece of work... For me to have expected to jump head-first into the unknown and expect to come out four months later with a fixed-up draft was foolishly ambitious. My advice to other writers going through this is simple: Sometimes, we all have to accept defeat. We're not always going to win. There's no shame in not being able to make an unrealistic deadline. Life happens, you know?<br /><br />Also, if you don't meet a deadline you were so sure about, it's okay to be a little depressed about it. I'm not going to tell you to "smile and keep your head up", because I've been there and it's no fun. But please, don't do what I did and let it keep you from your project for a week. Do what you have to do, listen to inspirational music, go for a walk, take a break for a couple days to think - but get right back at it! It's okay to fall down, but you have to get back up and keep going. :) <br /><br />Keep in mind as well that self-set deadlines are great for some people, but they certainly aren't for everyone. Some writers find it too stressful, and that's no good. A writer on one of the websites I visit frequently said something very wise the other day: "What inspires writing is good. What inhibits it is not." If you find that a deadline inhibits creativity or makes you rush through a project in any way, it's NOT worth it! Deadlines can be motivational, but if they make you rush your art, drop them. I don't care if it takes me four more months to edit Part II, for instance, I'm not rushing through it. Forget the deadline.<br /><br />First and foremost, every writer is different! If deadlines help you, great! If they don't, also great. You do what you have to do to keep that story moving. :)<br /><br />Short update on my progress: Macrorevision of Life in Black and White - I have 6/10 chapters edited for the second draft of Part I; it should be done on June 30.<br /><br />Part II - First readthrough completed and I know essentially what I want to keep, change and get rid of, but no big changes have been made yet.<br /><br />Part III: Second draft edit almost complete.<br /><br />It's All Inside My Head is on shelf until I'm done the second draft of its prequel. I've poked at it a couple of times though and I occasionally have some empty-nest syndrome if you will about it, which is usually when I'll go and reread some parts. :)N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-74545130330847219272010-07-03T20:51:00.003-03:002010-07-03T20:55:34.481-03:00MacrorevisionSo, as planned, I finished the first draft of libaw on May 31st. :)<br /><br />Aaaaaaaaand the dry month (June - where I couldn't touch the thing like, whatsoever) was brutal. It's a darn good thing I had Yumyum (It's All Inside My Head - the sequel) to plan, or else, as G would say, I would have most likely gone totally shitbat!<br /><br />But now it's July. Which means what?<br /><br />Macrorevision.<br /><br />Basically, this is the first stage of editing that I have to force myself through - the part where I look over the first draft, go "Nope", and change it completely.<br /><br />This should be interesting. <br /><br />I'll keep you posted.N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-47249274716179589332010-05-27T21:44:00.002-03:002010-05-27T21:48:32.943-03:00Stuff left!Here's what I have left to do in order to finish Libaw (more to get my own thoughts organized than anything):<br /><br />- That one random scene I didn't write yet in 3.10<br />- Scenes I haven't finished in 3.14<br />- Letter from 3.16<br />- 3.15<br />- 3.18<br /><br />That's it! Holy crrrraaaaappp... :|<br /><br />3 days to d-day, wish me luck!N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-24487777133632727812010-05-22T23:00:00.002-03:002010-05-22T23:05:52.942-03:00( O5.31.2O1O )The title links to what I have recently realized my day-to-day life pretty much consists of.<br /><br />It's May 22nd, which means I have nine - or rather eight, since it's 11:02 pm - days left to write until the day of my "Life in Black and White" first draft completion deadline (May 31st). I only have four chapters left, so yeah, pretty sure I'm going to make it. Yeah. That's not the point. The point is... <br /><br />EIGHT DAYS OH MY FREAKING GOD AKJDHAIOAHDJSALAKDHNSKABB HZIJSHDAJDGSJKAJDGSKALHNHCUUSZJMANADUASJAKMMBDJLZNDCNS!!!!!!!!N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-66462797626252756462010-05-20T18:44:00.002-03:002010-05-20T18:59:54.283-03:00Sequel PrepsThe title links to my epic Facebook page, Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness Month. :) Just a reminder to check this mother out if you have Facebook!<br /><br />Speaking of mothers, I have started planning the sequel to "Life in Black and White" (of which there remains only five chapters yet to be written, by the way. :O Somehow that seems too important to put in parentheses, but whatever). So far, "It's All Inside My Head" seems like it's going to be just as:<br /><br />- Long<br />- Obnoxious<br />- Depressing<br />- Overdramatic<br />- "Special"<br /><br />as it's predecessor. :) Perhaps even MORESO in some cases (read: depressing, "special").<br /><br />:3<br /><br />So yeah. <br /><br />One of the first steps I have undertaken in this Thing's planning stages, awkwardly enough, has been to make the soundtrack (version 1.0). This may seem a little bizarre to you, like, "wtf, she made the stupid book soundtrack before she finished excessively tweaking the whole entire plot? Who makes soundtracks for their book, anyway?"<br /><br />In response to the last question, I do. In response to the first, yep, I did.<br /><br />I NEED A READY-MADE PLAYLIST BEFORE (NOT WHILST) I START WORKING ON THIS DEPRESSING MOTHER. WHY? BECAUSE LAST TIME I BEGAN WRITING A LARGE BRICK OF FICTION, I DID NOT KNOW IT WOULD BECOME SUCH A LARGE BRICK OF FICTION. HAD I KNOWN THIS BEFOREHAND, I WOULD HAVE HAD A READY-MADE INSPIRATIONAL PLAYLIST BEFORE UNDERTAKING THAT ONE, TOO.<br /><br />kthx.<br /><br />Anyway, my soundtrack contains some epic, plot-relevant music. Which I love. I am very excited about this soundtrack. It keeps me from thinking too much about the scariness of finishing "Life in Black and White"!<br /><br />So here is the track list. :)<br /><br /><strong>It's All Inside My Head, 1.0</strong><br /><br />1. Enya - Amid the Falling Snow<br />2. Elton John - Birds<br />3. Sarah McLachlan - Good Enough<br />4. Miranda Lambert - The House That Built Me<br />5. Eiffel 65 - Blue<br />6. Avril Lavigne - Slipped Away<br />7. Barenaked Ladies - Brian Wilson<br />8. Kelly Clarkson - My Life Would Suck Without You <br />9. Beatles - Hey Jude<br />10. Elton John - Ballad of the Boy in the Red Shoes (this song inspired the book title)<br />11. Hedley - Perfect<br />12. Dido - Don't Leave Home<br />13. Roch Voisine - Kissing Rain (live version)<br />14. Coldplay - X&Y (novel theme)<br />15. The Beatles - In My Life<br />16. Sarah McLachlan - Answer<br />17. The Cinematic Orchestra - To Build a Home<br /><br />I tried my best to put the songs in chronological order of events in the plot. Hopefully, this will help me build the plot elements better. :)N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-24616059894182954862010-05-12T20:13:00.003-03:002010-05-12T20:31:18.322-03:0071 down, 9 to go. Plus, deadlinneeee!! Oh boy.Chapters of my novel, that is. Just nine more chapters to go until I finish my big disorganized heffa of a book. ;)<br /><br />I skipped a chapter and a half to write a really entertaining one called "Hurricane Bertha" (72). G's in for a surprise concerning the girl he's developed a bit of a crush on, but for the time being the chapter's atmosphere is really quite pleasant, which let me tell you is a rare occurrence in a book about mental illness. G and his fellow BPs in the guys' ward at good old Perry Springs (= the most epic psychiatric hospital ever, kthx) were watching the news in the day room the other day when they discovered there was a pretty big storm on its way! To make their lives more interesting, they decided to pretend it was a full-out hurricane, which G named Bertha after his deceased schizophrenic great-aunt.<br /><br />There was also an interesting, pretty much unrelated two-page scene in which G went through three moods. This was surprisingly easy to pull off, though I did have to make sure I just cruised through it in one shot. It was unrelated to the hurricane stuff, but still necessary because at the end of it, G got a call to inform him that his baby sister was born! Yay! :) He's been waiting for that for months.<br /><br />Unfortunately, the paranoid personalities in Hall B got wind of the "Hurricane Bertha" fabrication, and as a result, they are all royally freaking out and watching the news like their life depended on it. That means there's no room on the couch anymore for the BPs, but then again they kind of asked for it, didn't they? :P<br /><br />In other news, I own the Facebook page for Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness Month, which you definitely want to check out if you have Facebook. Randi Kreger, the author of two of my FAVORITE BPD research books, recently asked me to write an article on BPDA Month for her blog on Psychology Today's website (yes, the magazine). Of course I couldn't pass up this amazing opportunity, so I took a bit of time away from writing G's life story to compose that. The title of this post links to it, so feel free to check that out too.<br /><br />May 31st, 2010 is the deadline I'd set for myself to have the first draft of "Life in Black and White" completed - I'm going to get to work now, because that date is fast approaching and I hope I can make it!N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-41743417652696465992010-03-03T20:06:00.004-04:002010-03-03T20:32:46.700-04:00Why did the pigeon cross the street?Today I went to write at the cafe for the afternoon. I go to a pretty wonderful cafe called Cafe Cognito. It's on Main Street and it's located just inside an old dinner theatre; the atmosphere there is quite wonderful. I got there by bus around 1:30 if I remember correctly, but since the bus passes on the wrong side of the road I had to walk over to the intersection to cross the street. As I pressed the button and prepared to cross, I saw a pigeon calmly standing on the other side. When the light turned green and the crossing light appeared, the pigeon and I both began crossing the street. <br /><br />As I passed the pigeon, I began chuckling to myself despite the cars waiting on either side of me. I got to the other side and looked back - sure enough, there was the pigeon on the other side, making its way down the sidewalk.<br /><br />Somehow, this isn't even a joke.<br /><br />Apparently, this pigeon is smarter than quite a few people I know, who amuse themselves trying to jaywalk across busy streets at rush hour... at least it had the sense to wait at a crosswalk!<br /><br />In other news, I am now well into Part III and currently writing Chapter 65. I had to revamp the entire plot of Part III from the end of NaNo till now because it took me one chapter of it to understand that the plot I had wasn't going to work. Fortunately, I bounced back and I'm now more into the writing than I have been in a long while, so it works out. :)<br /><br />In OTHER news, I got a job. <a href="http://www.davidstea.com/">Check it out.</a> It's epic, just saying. :)<br /><br />My new job (and therefore source of income) has allowed me the financial stability to sign up for <a href="http://www.thebookmaster.ca/8WeekWritingJourney.php">this writing course</a> beginning on March 16th, which I am REALLY excited about. It's offered by a business woman that my esthetician - also a business woman - knows personally, and so I found out about it quite early. It's fairly expensive to me but I think it's worth it, since one can never learn too much about writing!<br /><br />The woman who gives the course owns a self-publishing company. You can check it out on her website if you're interested in self-publication. :) I personally am not, but you can still take her courses if you're going down the agenting route, so that's good. She said we were going to be talking about editing at parts, which is one of the major reasons why I signed up. I'm at that highly fulfilling yet highly SCARY point in my novel where I realize that I'm kind of almost done. And this scares me, mostly because it's like, yeah, and then what?<br /><br />Then, EDITING. And lots of it. And do I know the first thing about editing? ... Well, maybe the first thing... but not the second and third for sure! I need help, and this course will give it to me. I know this in my heart. :P<br /><br />The other day I had a break of musical inspiration and decided to sit down for an hour and recompile my novel soundtrack. A soundtrack with songs applicable to my project has always helped me with the creative process, since music and I are pretty much besties. The story of Life in Black and White has changed a load since I last compiled my soundtrack (in like, Part I), so I decided it required some updating.<br /><br />If you're reading this and think a novel soundtrack is kinda-sorta a good idea, or you're thinking it might work for you, I HIGHLY recommend you try it out. It helps loads I find!<br /><br />Here's mine. I highly recommend you listen to all of the songs on my soundtrack, because they are truly beautiful songs whether or not you relate them to my book. :)<br /><br /><br /><strong>Life in Black and White Original Soundtrack<br />Version 2.0</strong><br /><br />1. Annie Lennox - Walking on Broken Glass<br />2. The Beatles - Here Comes the Sun<br />3. Matchbox 20 - Long Day (The acoustic version works better with the ambiance of my novel, but they're both great.)<br />4. Gordon Lightfoot - For Lovin' Me<br />5. Coldplay - Clocks (Main theme)<br />6. Natalie Merchant - My Skin<br />7. MIKA - I See You<br />8. Gordon Lightfoot - Circle of Steel<br />9. The Beatles - Hey Jude<br />10. ABBA - Mamma Mia<br />11. Tegan & Sara - Fix You Up<br />12. Elton John - Ticking<br />13. MIKA - Happy Ending <br />14. Elton John - Dark Diamond<br />15. Madonna - Borderline<br />16. Massive Attack - Teardrop<br />17. Marie-Michele Desrosiers - Ave Maria (There are many, many versions of this - I chose my personal favorite for the soundtrack.)<br /><br />Have a good weekend, everyone!N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-63139571467525358172010-02-08T12:18:00.002-04:002010-02-08T12:39:41.447-04:00What's new?I've been really busy with other goings-on lately (read: school and being a complete bum), which is why I haven't had much time to update lately. But I won NaNoWriMo! So that's a start. c:<br /><br /><strong>HERE'S THE 411 ON MY BORING LIFE:</strong><br /><br />- I might be getting a job at <a href="http://www.davidstea.com/">this epic tea place</a>, which would be nice, since I love tea. And money.<br /><br />- I started a new collection of short stories (mostly horror) to work on on the side. It's untitled as of now, since I'm having this weird... title-block... thing. At the moment.<br /><br />- School is being absolutely retarded. I guess that's usually what happens when you go take six courses in the same semester, but yeah. I'm ambitious. So I'm studying a lot.<br /><br />- I've started painting again. Which I haven't done since I was in high school art classes, yo. But I like it, it's fun. <br /><br />- "Life in Black and White" is... well, it's going a bit slowly atm because of school, but I most certainly have not given up on it. It's progressing (like a snail). G will soon need shock treatments, which I'm both looking forward to writing and not looking forward to writing. I'm weird. Yeah, and J's birthday is not this Friday but next (the 19th) and I've decided to make a little cake in celebration and to paint a picture of him on another canvas which I shall go out and buy shortly. Which works because I really need recent drawings of him and G. Because the ones I have look like they were drawn by a twelve-year-old. Just saying. c:<br /><br />- That's pretty much it. <br /><br />I'm not able to update much at the moment, but if you'd like to check me out some other places on the web, here are some links to the places where I'm active:<br /><br />- <a href="http://nl-leblanc.deviantart.com">My art</a><br />- This <a href="http://gertielsd.blogspot.com">awkward parody blog</a> I'm doing with my writing group. I'm following most of them on it, so check out their parody-blogs too!<br />- I'm planning on possibly opening up a Youtube account, so stay tuned for that.<br />- You can always e-mail me at nlleblanc@ymail.com if you have something to say.<br /><br />What are you guys up to? :PN.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-2272304756668019132009-11-16T09:55:00.006-04:002009-11-16T10:45:39.810-04:00Wild goose chase (part one)<strong>NaNoWriMo</strong><br />Current word count: 26,153<br />Where I have to be by the end of the day: 26,672<br /><br />Piece of cake. :)<br /><br />This past Sunday (as in, not yesterday but the one before that) I attended the NB Writing Retreat - organized by <strong>Freddy Words</strong> - during which we wrote for eight-ish hours more or less nonstop. I managed to write almost 10k that day alone, and it's a darn good thing I did, because otherwise I'd be extremely behind right now. You see, quite a few... non-NaNoWriMo... things have been going down here lately.<br /><br />I know.<br /><br />The most important non-NaNo thing that's going on right now is school. I only have, like, not even three weeks left of this semester before final exams start, and I had two exams last week, so you can understand there have been a few days where I've not even been able to TOUCH the computer. I mean, even today, right after I finish this (because I hadn't updated since October, I figured it was probably a good idea to throw a post your way), I have to finish my statistics homework (blech - understand why I'm procrastinating?). Hectic-hectic!<br /><br />Speaking of hectic, the Christmas season has started at work. -_- And yeah, they called me almost every day this past week to pick up shifts. I had to refuse a couple of them because of NaNo and school - because apparently, they don't realize a university student who's writing a novel can't work every freaking day - but I did take one on Thursday because I felt bad. So I ended up working four days in a row. And wanted to shoot myself.<br /><br />Those are the major reasons I haven't been doing as much writing as I would have liked to this past week, but I guess it's to be expected from a university student working part-time. But thanks to the NB Writing Retreat, I seem to have it more-or-less under control. Which is really, really good - and quite unexpected. I thought for sure I would be behind by at least a couple days at this point in the month, but I'm not behind at all. Because I'm pretty sure I can cough up 500 words at some point today. :P<br /><br />There is one other thing, besides school and work, which has been... I guess you could say<em>, preoccupying </em>me.<br /><br />... Let me explain.<br /><br />Now may be a good time to tell you that I am pretty much addicted to horror movies. They are pretty much the only thing, besides the comedy network, "Grey's Anatomy" and "Intervention", I ever watch on TV. They are, but for a few exceptions, the only movies I really like. Hannibal Lecter is my husband. Jason Voorhees = coolster. And though I'm almost convinced there is no movie I could ever love more than "Fatal Attraction", one series of movies in particular is pretty freaking high up there on my list of "Movies I Get Ridiculously Pumped About Watching" - and that is the almost hideously long "Halloween" series. Like, yesterday I actually went to my chain-smoking grandmother's teeny-tiny apartment (my chronic bronchitis and all) to dig out my eccentric aunt's entire storage cabinet in search of "Halloween" movies. I am not shitting you.<br /><br />Where am I going with this, you ask?<br /><br />Okay. Well, long story short, the other day I found out that there was a novelization of the first "Halloween" movie. I pretty much flipped my lid, because this is a big deal. Because the novel has a perfect rating record and allegedly follows the movie to a tee while expanding on the plot and backstory. So immediately, before even checking it out, I decided I HAD (HAD) to read this book. And I'm one of those people that once I get something into my head, it's almost IMPOSSIBLE to get it out until I achieve it.<br /><br />Mistake number one.<br /><br />So all happy, I headed on over to work to figure out just how quickly I could get this freaking book. However curiously, the thing was not even in our system. "What the hell"-like, I broke store rules and headed over to Amazon.com to figure out what on Earth the meaning of this nonsense was.<br /><br />The good news is, I found the book on Amazon. The bad news is, it was published in 1979. Like most books, it stayed around for about ten years before it went out of print. So it's been out of print since, like, the late 1980s. As a result, this mass-market book is now classified as "extremely rare" and is worth approximately one hundred dollars (see for yourself - click the title of the post!).<br /><br />I said, "NO!"<br /><br />So because I am hugely stubborn, instead of just giving up hope on ever reading this awesome-sounding book, I have devised a few plans to find it.<br /><br />Plan A: Call my eccentric aunt Linda and see if she owns it. (Which failed - Linda has all the movies, but has never read nor owned the book. Silly Linda.)<br />Plan B: Lurk used bookstores around Moncton in the vain hopes that perhaps, just perhaps, someone may have it, not be aware of its value, and sell it to me for like three dollars (which we are doing today).<br />Plan C: Sell 100$ worth of my crap on Ebay, thus "exchanging" it for the book. I seriously hope it doesn't come to this. XD<br /><br />So my plan for today - lurking used bookstores, then returning home no later than seven o'clock to get at least my 1,667 words for the day done! Wish me luck on my wild goose chase!N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-24066190039854095282009-10-21T18:50:00.002-03:002009-10-21T19:07:54.365-03:00Pre-NaNoWriMoI'm taking a break from my intense philosophy studying (and surprisingly, that's not even sarcastic. Philosophy is freaking DEMONIC.) to explain my plan for how in the world I am going to get to the end of Chapter 60 for November 1st.<br /><br />Yes, I do have a plan!<br /><br />Why do I need to get to Chapter 61 for November 1st, you ask? Well, as all of you writers out there must know, <strong>National Novel Writing Month </strong>starts on November 1st. Currently, my NaNoWriMo profile's Novel Info states that I will be undertaking "Life in Black and White, Part III" as this year's project. And Part III of Life in Black and White starts at Chapter 61.<br /><br />Where am I now, you ask? Since I had to do an entire revamp of Chapter 42, I am currently working on Chapter 45.<br /><br />I swear to God, I have a plan!<br /><br />And I know my plans haven't exactly always worked wonders in the past, but I will get to Chapter 61 on time if it's the last thing I do. All writers need to learn to work with deadlines at some point, right? This'll be good experience.<br /><br />Also, since I have <strong>my NaNo Travel Mug</strong>, I'm all set. Bring it on!<br /><br />So however am I going to pull this off?<br /><br />Well, this Friday is my last day of school before I'm off for an entire week. And since NaNoWriMo starts that Sunday, the timing couldn't have been more perfect.<br /><br />So here's <strong>my plan</strong>. It was devised with the assumption that I won't get any writing done this coming weekend, which I doubt will be true. I have to give myself some room to move around, though, in case something unexpected happens!<br /><br />So... here goes:<br /><br /><br /><strong>Monday, October 26th: </strong>Chapters 45, 46 and 47.<br /><strong><br />Tuesday, October 27th: </strong>Chapters 48, 49 and 50.<br /><strong><br />Wednesday, October 28th: </strong>Chapters 51, (beginning of chapter arc (my chapter arc is already about halfway written) ->) 52 and 53<br /><strong><br />Thursday, October 29th: </strong>Chapters 54, 55 and 56 (<- end of chapter arc)<br /><strong><br />Friday, October 30th: </strong>Chapters 57 and 58<br /><br /><strong>Saturday, October 31st: </strong>Chapter 60, preliminary Part III planning.<br /><br /><br />Before you ask, yes, I am going to be holed up in my living room all week like a recluse. When you're a novelist on a mission, there are certain sacrifices you sometimes have to make!<br /><br />Wish me luck! :)N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-41587391717534655982009-10-15T19:39:00.003-03:002009-10-15T19:48:07.627-03:00This is the book that doesn't end. :)<a href="http://img26.imageshack.us/img26/8002/libawpromo.jpg"><img style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 804px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 597px" alt="" src="http://img26.imageshack.us/img26/8002/libawpromo.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>We're back from Montreal.</div><div>It was a greeeeeat concert. <3</div><div>I'm just dropping in to say hi.</div><div>I don't have much time.</div><div>I have to do the dishes, and then...<br />I'm off to work on Chapter 45. :)</div><br /><div></div>N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-89497447477334730932009-10-09T23:17:00.004-03:002009-10-09T23:47:04.323-03:00It's A Wonderful WorldToday, I've come to the realization that as horrible and shitty as my book seems now, serious editing will make it better. And one day it will be a beautiful thing, a true work of art, if it's the last thing I do.<br /><br />I've been a bit novel-depressed the past couple days. See, currently I'm writing a short series of chapters which contain quite a few law elements and other things involving the judicial system (before you ask, G is not a serial killer. He's just kind of... rebellious. And besides, most of this law stuff has nothing to do with him), which I know barely anything about, and so the chapters are extremely hard to get accurate, speed-writing as I am. Despite the fact that it's only my first draft, instances like this one never, ever fail to make me feel like a grossly incompetent, sloppy writer. I just cannot seem to get it into my thick skull that there will be editing, and lots of it. What I'm writing right now is most certainly not what I'll be sending in to my publisher.<br /><br />Feeling like a horrible writer makes most writers' confidence go down a few pegs, and I'm sad to say that I didn't escape this predicament. I was uninspired. I wanted to take the printed chapters of my book and throw them against the wall. Yesterday, I actually asked myself if the story was too far gone down the crappy route to be continued, and the fact that I would have even for a mere millsecond considered breaking my pledge to <strong>Never, Ever Abandon "Life" </strong>scares me to no end.<br /><br />This morning, I still felt pretty crappy about my story. But when I got home from class, something weird happened. I thought to myself, perhaps subconsciously, "Maybe I need to stop forcing it. Maybe I just need to concentrate on something else for today. I can forget, just for one day, that I'm a writer."<br /><br />So that's what I did. Today, I wasn't a writer, but rather an activist.<br /><br />I spent the entire afternoon, from half past noon till five o'clock, getting things done for <strong>the BPD Feature Project</strong>. I fixed the group's name, pasted the link on a few websites, drafted a letter to Randi Kreger (founder of BPD Central), and last, but not least... made a video to Dr. Phil. That last one took me about two hours, but it was two hours well-spent.<br /><br />At the end of the day, I was left with an accomplished feeling. I felt good about what I was doing, and rather like I could move mountains, if I tried.<br /><br />Am I really going to let three "difficult" chapters stand in my way? No. No, I am most certainly not. I will write these chapters, and they might be awful... but they're not written in stone. I have to remember that, or else I'll never move forward.<br /><br />I realized another very important thing today: that although I am perhaps not the person most gifted with words, and wording, and phrases and expressions; although I am not the best writer out there; although I sometimes feel like my writing and chapter plots are sloppy and amateur, even despite it being the first draft... I do know one thing for sure.<br /><br />All clumsiness aside, I can tell one hell of a story.<br /><br />And you can call it bragging if that's what you want to call it, I'm perfectly fine with that. That knowledge is what keeps me going sometimes, and to me, that's all that matters.N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-723400894875754192009-10-07T13:11:00.004-03:002009-10-07T13:40:39.514-03:006 days till Montreal, or the dilemmas of a pre-med novelist.<strong>Things to do:<br /></strong>- French assignment due tomorrow<br />- Statistics homework due Friday (technically next Wednesday, but I kind of won't be in the province...)<br />- Go to the mall and get money out for cafe with WFA/bus tomorrow<br />- Figure out what bus to take from university to cafe with WFA<br />- Make an appointment with the Dean of Sciences to ask him if I need to take those 10 extra pre-med courses or not (I'm hoping NOT, because the list contains math)<br />- Read the next chapter of psych<br />- Re-read my anatomy notes so that I actually don't fail my next test.<br />- Draft an e-mail to BPDcentral for the BPD Feature Project (the BPD Info site has generously agreed to forward it for me)<br />- Do dishes for mom<br />- Figure out whether or not WFA wants to come with me to the NaNoWriMo writing retreat in Fredericton<br />- Make a packing list for Montreal<br />- Find someone, ANYONE to switch my 12-8 shift next Saturday with<br />- Work on Chapter 42!!<br /><br />See what happened there? Writing is the last thing on my list. Lately, it seems like writing is ALWAYS the last thing on my list. And I really need to fix that, to make time for my story, if I want to have the slightest chance to have Part II done by November 1st.<br /><br />What I need is better time management. But how do I make time to find ways to manage time when there's barely enough time to do everything else? *rubs temples*<br /><br />One thing's for sure: university students always need to juggle things. It becomes more complicated, I'd say, when the university student is question is trying to get into a graduate medical school that only accepts 30 people a year. Oh yeah, and she writes books, too!<br /><br />Sometimes, writing HAS to take the back burner. It's part of "growing up", in a sense. When I was in grade 11, I had little else to do but write. Now, I have responsibilities. I have homework, tests every other week, and studying that I actually need to do. I can't just slip by like I did in high school - those days are over.<br /><br />So I accept it. I do what I need to do, and sometimes, I steal away a few precious minutes to write down a good idea. To imagine a scene between friends, enemies, or lovers, or wannabe-lovers. To tell myself, "the weekend's coming! You can sit down at the computer with a nice cup of HT and write all day."<br /><br />I accept that now, writing's not the only thing - and hell, it may not even be the most important thing. I accept it... but very seldom do I like it.<br /><br /><br />I'll update again later, hopefully having crossed a few things off that epic massive list!N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-67959186271485892542009-10-05T14:59:00.003-03:002009-10-05T15:05:55.548-03:00Too busy to think of a title for this postMood: Wired<br /><br />Listening to: MIKA - I See You<br /><br />Wants: - A new phone<br />- To work on Chapter 42/43<br /><br />Is stuck doing: Anatomy and psychology revision<br /><br />Needs: Another coffee<br /><br />Should: Be doing something productive and not be writing up this blog post.<br /><br />Tired of: - Studying<br />- The thought of having to go to work tonight. -_-<br /><br />Wishes: Statistics class did not make me want to shoot myself in the head.<br /><br />Loves: - G + J <3<br />- Libaw<br />- The fact that I will be en route to Montreal in 8 days<br />- MIKA<br />- My cat, who is currently petting my arm<br /><br />*smiles, closes window and reluctantly shuffles off to the whiteboard to study*N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-53370732629239708212009-10-03T20:01:00.003-03:002009-10-03T20:13:22.571-03:00Back from work, and victory. :)So I just got home from work and duly noted that literally my whole house is now decorated for Halloween. O__o We know what my mom did today!<br /><br />Before work, I finished Chapter 41! :D It took a little longer than I expected, because I had to revamp a scene that just wasn't working AT ALL. But now it's all cute, fluffy (not in the cheesy romance sense, mind you!) and depressing, as typical, and I'm quite happy with it.<br /><br />Finishing Chapter 41 is kind of a small victory for me, because it contains a "milestone" of sorts for G that I've been really quite reluctant to write (and just in case you're as dirty-minded as I am, no, it's not that :P). But I sucked in my ridiculous amount of affection for him and just wrote the damn thing. I made sure to write it all in one shot, as it is quite upsetting and I knew I would avoid finishing it forever.<br /><br />So now, it's done. And I feel better prepared for all the heart-wrenching scenes still to come.<br /><br /><br />*<br /><br /><br />In other news, I just got an e-mail from<strong> Sharon Joseph </strong>at <a href="http://monctonwritersclub.blogspot.com/">http://monctonwritersclub.blogspot.com/</a>, in response to my great, huge, all-consuming, borderline-creepy desire to join her WRITERS CLUB! :D I am so very excited at the prospect of finally, finally, FINALLY joining a writers' group. Like, you don't even get how excited I am.<br /><br />I NEED MORAL SUPPORT AS I VENTURE DEEPER AND DEEPER INTO MY CHARACTER'S INSANITY, AND MONCTON WRITERS CLUB SHALL BE MY SAVIOUR!!!<br /><br />Haha... now THAT was borderline-creepy. Sorry. I'm just uber-excited.<br /><br />Chapter 42 and anatomy revision, here I come!N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-87481997941427364102009-10-03T11:30:00.004-03:002009-10-03T20:15:21.894-03:00Publication and PleaClick the title to see the webpage of <strong>Scribblers and Ink Spillers, LLC</strong>. Their October issue of <strong>Emerald Tales magazine</strong> was just released, and it contains my poem, <em>This Mask I Wear</em>. :) This is my third poem to be published, and I'm excited about its release! Emerald Tales also contains several other wonderful, compelling short works, so if you would like to purchase a copy, please visit the webpage! The magazine is available in both print and electronic formats.<br /><br /><br /><br />Things are going somewhat slowly on my end, but well nonetheless. School has started up again, so my time for writing is limited. However, I'm not about to let my fancy-snazzy psychiatric studies stop me from getting to Part III of the novel in time for <strong>National Novel Writing Month</strong>! Which I do religiously every year! (This year's profile: <a href="http://http//www.nanowrimo.org/eng/user/406001">http://http//www.nanowrimo.org/eng/user/406001</a>)<br /><br />So, just as soon as I've finished this post, I'm off to finish Chapter 41-Chapter 42. I have two hours and twenty-five minutes left before I am forced to get up and get ready for work, but I'll let you know how it goes. :) Chapter 41 is very nearly done, and Chapter 42 is about halfway, so unless some sort of natural disaster happens here it really should be no problem.<br /><br />I'm pumped!<br /><br />I can't wait for NaNo, absolutely not!<br /><br />And apparently someone up there really, really feels my urgency to get to the end of Chapter 60, because my mom and I have managed to score two tickets to go see MIKA in Montreal. You know what that means...<br /><br />MIKA? YAY? - Well, that too.<br /><br />But mostly, it means that the drive from N.B. to Montreal is approximately 10 hours. And the drive from Montreal to N.B. is also 10 hours. So that, my friends, means 20 hours of absolutely nothing to do but WRITE. PART. II. And listen to my grandparents' forties country music in the van, but that's an utterly different story.<br /><br />Awesome.<br /><br />I'm excited.<br /><br />As long as I have my coffee, I CAN STAY AWAKE. Which is why I will be ordering this: <a href="https://store.lettersandlight.org/merchandise/nanowrimo-brown-travel-mug">https://store.lettersandlight.org/merchandise/nanowrimo-brown-travel-mug</a> with much due haste. Because I CAN DO IT.<br /><br />So my goal is to finish at least up to Chapter 45 before October 13th, when we leave for Montreal. And considering I'm almost done Chapter 41, I CAN DO THAT, TOO.<br /><br />Yay! Realistic goals ftw!<br /><br /><br /><br />Alright, guys... so before I go, there's one more thing I wanted to mention.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/group.php?gid=100174976965&ref=ts">http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/group.php?gid=100174976965&ref=ts</a><br /><br />The link above will bring you to <strong>The BPD Feature Project</strong>'s Facebook group. If you would like to help bring awareness to a severe mental illness, please join us. Our goal is to convince Dr. Phil to feature <strong>borderline personality disorder</strong> (G's mental illness) on his show. If he does, that would certainly kick up the general knowledge a few knotches! So again, if you have Facebook, please join. It's a very simple process and won't take a lot of your time.<br /><br /><br /><br />And with that, I'm off to write! :) Have a nice day, everyone.<br /><br />Love, N.L.N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-12684393214735939302009-08-04T14:01:00.003-03:002009-08-04T14:13:45.448-03:00Inspiration is found in the strangest of places.It's G's birthday in four days. So since I failed to finish Chapter 39 for last Wednesday, August 8th is my new, hopefully final deadline. I know, I know, I should be writing instead of updating on here. Shoot me.<br /><br />I have a question for anyone who might happen upon this blog. Where do you get your writing inspiration? For me, it happens in all sorts of places and all sorts of times. I'll often get a good idea in the wee hours of the morning, on a short day trip (on which I have NOT brought a writing pad, of course, because I'm just that lucky), or in the shower. One of my most important subplots came up in the shower, actually, almost fully-formed.<br /><br />But for the most part, my inspiration comes from music. I've always been that loser who makes soundtracks for her stories. Simply put, when I hear a song that reminds me of my novel in any way, it motivates me to write. When I hear a song that reminds me of a certain part or chapter, I want to write that part or chapter. I listen to music every waking moment, or at least almost.<br /><br />Currently, I am quite in love with the new Black Eyed Peas hit "I Gotta Feeling". Mika's new "We Are Golden" is also a huge one for me right now (it certainly helps that Mom is Mika's hugest fan and basically stalks him). If we're talking long-term, though, Gordon Lightfoot's "Carefree Highway" is my personal favorite novel-fitting song. And those are just a few of the tunes that have inspired me over time.<br /><br />What inspires you? What motivates you?<br /><br />In other news, I have completed Chapter 36. Moving on. :)N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-77689172953191312672009-08-02T20:47:00.003-03:002009-08-02T21:03:28.059-03:00Update before I watch Big Brother!Big Brother is on in ten minutes (yay!), but seeing as I haven't posted in a few days now, I thought I would just drop it for a few moments and say hi.<br /><br />So, hi!<br /><br />As far as writing is concerned... progress could be worse, but it certainly could be better. In my defense, I've just completed three consecutive eight-hour shifts at work. Chapter 36 is almost done, which is wonderful, and really, all I care about at this point.<br /><br />Yes, I failed to complete up to Chapter 40 for last Wednesday. Shoot me.<br /><br />My Writing Friend A (WFA) is coming over to watch a couple episodes of Mental tomorrow, and afterwards, we shall head over to the Starbucks attached to work to get a bit of writing done. She is also in the process of writing a rather psychological novel. We were actually talking about the striking similarities our protagonists have today, and it's true - they do have a lot in common! G and her character are both male, mentally ill and not heterosexual (her character is gay and G is bisexual).<br /><br />Since the day was extremely long at work (it was, after all, Sunday), WFA, WFB and I also made fun of diverse genre romance character names. Our favorite author is Katie McAllister, whose characters have highly amusing, unrealistic names like "Pia", "Drake", "Theondre", etc. Ironically enough, G also shares his name with a Katie McAllister cover-hottie. But his name is normal, and not Theondre-like. G's name is hardly worthy of a Katie McAllister novel, I say. Because of this, however, WFB predicted that my novel would, somewhere along the way, become a genre romance about sailors. I do agree that G would make an excellent sailor, but honestly, take me out back and shoot me dead if my novel ever becomes even somewhat reminiscent of a genre romance. To each his (or rather, her) own, but those books absolutely drive me up the wall.<br /><br />Anyway, Big Brother's starting! So I have to go, but I will try to post again tomorrow!N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-84199587751752759062009-07-28T09:12:00.001-03:002009-07-28T20:53:07.773-03:00Behold!Allow me to introduce my cast of characters, who will undoubtedly be much talked about on this blog. Because I love them so. This is really just to avoid confusion (read: and because I love to talk about my characters), which would be completely inevitable should I not write up this post.<br /><br /><strong>My Lovely Characters:</strong><br /><strong></strong><br />G - My beloved protagonist. The novel covers fifteen years of his life, from the age of five to twenty, and throughout these years he goes through many issues, from compulsive spending to "OMGWTF UR A JERK/BITCH!!1"-type confrontations. It might be a good idea to mention that G is profoundly gifted, and also that he is severely mentally ill. That last one is especially good to mention considering his mental illness is kind of the whole point of the story.<br /><br />I - G's legal guardian. How she became his legal guardian is an immeasurably long story.<br /><br />DR - G's psychiatrist. He dislikes the nearby psychiatric institution and wants it closed. He also dislikes G a little bit when G takes yet another immature fit along the lines of, "My life sucks and no one loves me."<br /><br />C - G's psychologist, an expert in his disorder, who never, ever dislikes G no matter what his mood's like, who manages an entire therapy group of people like G twice a week for two hours, and who therefore has much, much more patience than I ever will.<br /><br />J - G's love interest (love interest being the understatement of the year), who does not return his feelings and who is also a registered sociopath.<br /><br />Y - One of G's three best friends.<br /><br />Z - One of G's three best friends.<br /><br />A - A young girl who lives in Sackville, New Brunswick, Canada, who appears to have absolutely nothing to do with this story but really, really does.<br /><br />V - Said young Sackville girl's older brother.<br /><br />S - G's twin sister. She has learning disabilities.<br /><br />These are my most major characters. Other characters may come up in a post, but I will make sure to clearly label them and explain their role when and if they do.N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6820133374958323573.post-15949621125394366932009-07-27T19:31:00.000-03:002009-07-27T19:49:31.068-03:00First PostThis is the part where I introduce myself.<br /><br />My name is N.L. LeBlanc. I'm 18 years old and live in New Brunswick, Canada. I graduated from high school in June and am attending University in September as a psychology student. After completing my bachelor's degree, I plan on going to medical school and pursuing a career in psychiatry.<br /><br />My passion is writing. I am a published author (poetry) and have been working on my beloved novel since June 2008. Before I started writing <em>Life in Black and White</em>, I wrote the beginnings of two other novels (at ages 15 and 16), completed one previous novel (age 13) and two novellas (ages 11 and 12). None of my novels were published at those ages. The completed novel won't be, as it was the first of a series and I have no interest in continuing in. But I do plan on someday reworking the novellas and hopefully putting them out there.<br /><br />If those novels were "happy relationships" while they lasted, then <em>Life in Black and White</em> is the love of my life. I've been working on it for a year and two months, and giving up has never been an option (although I am currently sifting through annoying filler... but it'll end soon enough :P). Basically my life's ambition is to get it published and for it to hopefully become a bestseller.<br /><br />Which is why I am working on getting smaller things (poetry, short stories) published, so that I can have a nice list of previous publications to impress an agent with. :)<br /><br /><br /><strong>Why on Earth am I blogging instead of writing my novel?</strong><br /><br />Well, kids, sometimes a writer needs a break, you know? Take today, for example. I told my mother I would be able to give her chapters 33-39 by tomorrow night, so I spent basically the whole day working on chapters 36 and 37. Now I'm pooped.<br /><br />Although I always tend to feel guilty when doing something other than writing my book, the truth is that blogging, to me, is basically a writer's therapy. I love talking about my book. I especially love talking about my characters, who have a mind of their own. Blogging, I hope, will give me a good outlet to do that, even when it feels like no one is listening.<br /><br />And once I've made my daily (or at least regular) post, I can plunge back into my work a refreshed, motivated me.<br /><br />Or at least that's what I tell myself.N.L. LeBlanchttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02909693422136261593noreply@blogger.com1